16 weeks and 3 days

So at 16 weeks my body decides it wants to add a bug to the mix. I don't mean insect, I mean illness. I am actually glad that I got sick because I was a little worried that my morning sickness came back.
I was at work when I started to feel really nauseous. I did what all the books and websites said and tried to eat a little something to keep my stomach full, but that only made me puke. So, I am a trooper and decided to stay at work until the closers came to work...we where scheduled to overlap two hours...but when she got to work, I left early. Good thing, because I keep getting worst and even had a slight fever.
Lucky me and lucky my little monkey...I am obsessed with monkeys right now...my sickness only lasted 24hrs. I was a nervous wreck because I knew I needed to eat but I just could not stomach anything.
Right now, I am loving not being sick...today I actually ate like crazy...by crazy I mean I was eating something just about every 2 hours. It's a good thing I like food to begin with. I just don't understand how people could skip meals. I like the eating when you are hungry and not feeling guilty for eating so much.

Emotional 15

Well this week was a rollercoaster emotional week. I kinda didn't know if I was coming or going. I was just all over the place. It didn't help that I closed most of the week at work, so my sleep schedule was all messed up. Plus, if I had something on my mind, I couldn't really talk with Brian because he would be at work when I would start thinking of things. And by the time I got home from work, he was either asleep or we were too tired to get into any of the heavy emotional discussions.

At least we had 12 hours in a car to talk about anything that we were stressed or worried about. We went to North Canton/Medina over the weekend to celebrate our nephew's, John-Paul, 3rd birthday. We came to the conclusion that we will always worry about something.

As for the weekend with the in-laws, well they got to see how crazy I have gotten. I don't remember how many times I cried over anything. I was going to say cried over nothing, but I realized that what made me cry is all the built up anxiety of becoming a mother.

I was glad to know that I am not that much of a freak. Brian's sister comforted me and told me that she worried about similiar things. She nicely told Brian that things will go through my mind that may seem like such far off thoughts, but that for a pregnant woman it just hits you in a different way.

I can't really explain it because I don't even really understand it myself. I just know that there are a thousand things that will change in the next days, weeks, months, years, and it just seems to hit me like a hurricane of fear, doubt, happiness, excitement and the only way to cope with it is to cry. I just have to remember to take one thing at a time. It will all be worth it. That is what everyone keeps telling me. I know they are all right, cause I got to see that this past weekend.

I got to see the two most adorable silly little men I have ever met, my nephews, Andrew and John-Paul, and I just can't believe how fast they have grown.

Time flies, and before I know it, I will be planning a fun little kid birthday party too.

14 weeks

Okay so when you have chronic back pain, and you are pregnant, exercise is your best friend. Well at least it should be. But try telling that to a stubborn pregnant chic.

I didn't do what my chiropractor told me to do, or what my husband tells me to do, and the result was/is back pain. I don't mean "oh I am sore" type of back pain. I mean "if I take another step I am going to collapse and crawl everywhere I need to go" type of back pain.

I woke up one day and realized that I was too stiff to move. And, if I tried to walk, my left leg would give out. Not the best way to start the day.

So I ended up getting the disappointed look from Brian, because I hadn't been keeping up with my back exercises. I don't really have any excuse because the benefits out way the risks. I just was lazy and didn't really want to go to the gym, or even go for a walk.

So now, I sit here typing away with a heating pack on my back and a new motivation to go to the gym every day or else I will end up being on bed rest because I won't be able to walk because of the extreme pain.

Week 13

This week was amazing!! I am still on a baby heartbeat high!! It was just amazing to hear that swooshing sound which is my baby.

Did I also mention that I have an incredible husband? Brian has been such great help this week. He has helped me with making dinner most nights and has listened to my frustrations. He has dealt with my crazy emotional moments.

I think that the best Brian moment, this week, was when I came home yesterday. He told me about his day and that he went to Buy Buy Baby. I am still beaming with joy hearing about how he walked into the store trying to buy me some new maternity pants. He didn't find any but he did learn about registering for baby stuff. He got a little book with different crib and drawer furniture sets. He had different employees coming to him answering his questions. I just get a nice warm feeling thinking about how involved my honey is in this pregnancy. He is going to be an amazing daddy.

Also, he says hello to the baby and even wishes the baby "peace" during mass!!! How much more can I say about the love of my life?! He surprises me all the time and I look forward to watching him with his new baby.

I'm pregnant!!

Well it is official. I am having a baby. I went to the doctor today and I got to hear the baby's heartbeat.
It was really cool. It was funny because when the doctor was getting ready to put the machine to my belly, she says, "Don't worry if it takes a little bit to get the heartbeat." And almost as soon as she said it and put the machine to my belly, we heard it. The doctor says, "I lied. Your skinny." She listens and says that the heart beat is 165 beats per minute. That is really good and strong. The doctor even said that we heard the baby kick too. It was so cool. I am so relieved!! The doctor is really happy with the results from my last appointments bloodwork and she is even happy that I gained 2 pounds from last month.
Before we left for the appointment, I started crying. I was worried that she would not be able to find the heartbeat. I know that I don't have anything to worry about because I have been doing well. But I just worry that something will go wrong. So it is great that we heard the heartbeat really quick!
I just keep remembering what the doctor said and what the baby's heartbeat sounded like. I giggle every time because I remember the doctor looking at Brian and says "Well, she's pregnant!" That was the best doctor's appointment ever!!

12 weeks and 1 day

This week was a crazy week. Not really from a pregnancy point, but from a work point. The pregnancy did play a part in the work part. Work was crazy. First, I was scheduled 8 to 4 Monday-Friday, and by the way, I am only part-time. It was stressful because the President of Staples was in town to look at several stores. Our store wasn't on the list for visit, but we still had to act as if we were on the list. Everyone on staff was scheduled to work everyday. The thing is that we weren't really busy. So basicly, we were all tripping over each other trying to find something to do. There were two days were I was told to buff the floor. Now, the first day was great because everyone had to take a double look because they never expected me to be buffing the floor with this big old buffing machine. The second day was just pointless. First off, the manage didn't have anyone sweep or mop the floor first, which would have made the floor look better without using the buffer. Second, the manager didn't want me doing the entire floor, just little sections. So there ended up being bright shiny spots scattered across the entire store. No joke, I would have rather mopped the entire store. Either way, I ended up both those days sore and exhausted. Then there was a day, where I was scheduled to be a cashier, but ended up spending the entire day on the sales floor putting items on the shelves. That was fun, but with all the walking back and forth, I was even more exhausted than the days when I had to buff the floors. And finally, the dreaded visit day came and went. The president didn't stop at our store, what a relief!! And I also got to go home 2 hours early!! Since I was still so tired from the previous 3 days, I got home and took a nap for 2 hours!! It felt wonderful. And by Friday, we knew that the president was far from Indiana, so we were able to relax at work and actually have fun. Again, a ton of people were scheduled to work that I again got to go home early. This time I did something productive with my me time.

One of the things that I have now started freaking out about is where to put the baby when he or she arrives. Our apartment is a good size, but the baby needs her or his own room. So I guess you can say that I am starting my nesting phase. I am getting nervous about having enough room for the baby. So Brian and I have been really paying close attention to the housing market. We have signed up on different realtor sites for free emails of listings and today we plan on going to a couple open houses. Brian is freaking out because he believes we are not ready to start looking at actual houses, but I am freaking out because we need a realtor to help us and we haven't met with any! So I am challenging and supporting my husband to get over his fear of open houses by making him go with me to a few. I am going to do most of the talking to the realtor so that we can find one while his goal is to actually look at the house. We even have a little notebook that we are going to write all our thoughts and concerns in!

I just want to make sure that we don't slack on the house hunting or else I am going to have to finally break out with my alter ego "crazy psycho pregnant Tina" in order to make sure that my little bundle of joy is nice and comfy come February!!

take a hike

Well this week was an interesting one. I feel things are definitely changing for me. I have been feeling some new symptoms, like headaches, forgetfulness, and blue veins. The blue veins kind of freaked me out. I feel like I am turning into a smurf! Well it is more like I am a freakin' road map!! I can see my veins in my shoulders, arms, and legs. I am excited about the veins I see on my belly...it reminds me that all the symptoms are worth it!!

The headaches are frustrating because they wake me up in the middle of the night. Earlier in the week, I was sleeping really nicely. I was having this amazing dream about having a little boy. He was the most adorable baby I had ever seen. I was sitting on a park bench feeding a bottle to my little boy. He had brown curly hair and had a green onesy with some cartoon animals on the front. Then my dream starting going bad. Some guy stole my diaper bag and I started chasing him. Then I woke up with a splitting headache. I tried getting comfortable so I could dream about my little boy again. It took awhile but I finally was able to fall back to sleep.

Now, the forgetfulness, well I am not really sure, I just don't remember. I think I just might drive Brian crazy. Normally, I am absentminded, but you add in pregnancy and well it's worst.

I guess the good thing about this week is that I have been able to exercise more. It was great today because we went to the park. We went hiking on the trails. It felt amazing. That is actually where the picture was taken. Forty-five minutes hiking and I felt great!! I hope I am able to keep this up for the rest of the pregnancy!!